Monday, January 24, 2011

I'm not suppose to love you
I'm not suppose to care
I'm notsuppost to live my life,
wishing you where there
I'm not suppose to wonder where
you are, or what you do
I'm sorry I can't help it
I'm in love with you
Sometimes the only thing keeping you alive is your friends, sometimes the thing that kills you is your family!! sometimes the only thing keeping you alive is your family, sometimes the thing that kills you is your friends!! Sometimes you think deeply about killing yourself, then you think about someone who cares deeply about you, and you think of what it would do to them!! So you decide not to do it, and to hold out for another day.

When someone is bothering you about your cutts, you wish they would just go away. It's your life and you'll live it the way you want. If

why i cutt

you look into the eyes of your favorite friends who just wants to help you.. But they don't realize you don't need there help!! You don't want there help, you tell them but they continue to try to get through to you but fail!! Yet when they should have given up all hope they still try!! And you realize how much they really care, but it still doesn't change the way you think!!

Sometimes you hide from them, but sometimes you try as hard as you can to be around them!! It seems whenever you want to be around them, they don't talk to you!! and whenever you want to be left alone whey wonte go away!!

so many reasons why you cut your self, so you made a list that looks like this:

friends: ignore me when i need there attention the most. bother me when i just want to be left alone!!
family: ignores me when i do something good and only notices if i do something bad!!
life: i wish i could tell people i was bi but I'm afraid of what people will think because your already weird enough!!
So that's the reasons why you cut, but theres still more that you wont even wright on paper!!

You look back at your arms and think "So many scars may form, but i will never regret a single one!!" and the truth of your own words frighten you!! you look around at all your school mates and wonder what they think of all day, and what they think of you!! You wonder who hates you, and who loves you!! You wonder who supports you, and who wants to destroy you!! Then finally you wonder who they really are inside do they let there real self show, or do they hide behind the lie of life!!


katt

Friday, January 21, 2011

girl


You see that girl, yeah her?
She seem so invincible, right?
But just touch her & shell winch.
She has secrets & trusts no one.
She's the prefect example of betrayal.
Cause everyone shes ever trusted
broke her
if the truth was told
instead of the lie,
then the pain,
would go away
sooner!

lullaby

Go to sleep and close your eyes,
and dream of broken butterflies,
that tore their wings against a thorn.
You know the pain that they have borne.

Silver metal, shine so bright.
Scarlet blood, that feels so right.
Dream of blood trickling down,
and wake up just before you drown.

The moonlight's shining off your tears,
as you bleed out your own worst fears.
so tonight when you start to cry,
whisper the cutters lullaby.